Thank you, stranger.

Just by being an asshole, and not realizing it?
I would not listen to her or pay attention or tell her how much I loved her.
And even if I did, it’ll be a million years before she believes it.
(I AM actually willing to wait a million years for her to realize that I’m hopelessly in love with her. Its something I cannot control. When I look at her, I know. I just, I just know.)
Idk, there is something seriously wrong with me because a girl like her should never hurt a single day in her life.
I’m so in love with her but I’m also just so.. so stupid for being an idiot!

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Never in my wildest dreams had I imagined we would be together. We met online, a site called Myyearbook, and secretly fell in love for each other. Not knowing what to do, we decided to be friends and eventually, stopped talking. I never stopped loving her, and neither did she. Summer of 2011, we messaged each other on Facebook. By August, I decided that speaking to her wasnt enough, and I drove 6 hours to meet her. In October, we started to date long-distance.

By November, she decided that moving down to live and spend the rest of her life by my side is what she wanted. I couldnt have been happier. Thanksgiving night, she drove. I was our Black Friday shopping, of course, and by 2:00am, I started to worry. She was suppose to be in town by now. Frightened, I got in my vehicle and drove to find her. After searching for three hours, I stopped at a gas station so that my mom, who came with me to help look, could ask if anyone had seen her. Next to us was a sheriff, and he had Ashtyn’s dog in a cage inside of his truck.

Ashtyn had crashed in between two trees, and she was in the hospital, barely alive. First week, she had lost all memory of me. Constantly being yelled at, hit, and told to leave had me worried she would never recover. What kept me strong was the night time. As she slept, she said my name, and with it, an “i love you”. I stayed with her every minute of every day, nursing her back to health and giving her the power she needed to be strong. In return, she gave me inspiration, hope, faith, and love.

She fractured her pelvis in four places, suffered a crack on the bottom of her spine, and completely tore off the skin on her left hand, exposing it to infection and having to have two surgeries. To everyones amazement, she walked the minute she awoke.

I failed my current semester in college and almost lost my job, but without her, I would have lost my spirit and myself as a person. She is worth more than any amount of money, more than any career. She is my one true love.

We stayed in the hospital for over a month. Its April now, and nothing shows of the accident except for a scar on her hand. We have been living together since the accident, with my parents. In 9 days, we are starting a new life, in a home that we can call our own.

We may be young, but the love we have for each other is strong. Through the worst, we have proven to each other just how strong we can be.

I pray that you’ll ask for me back.

Things arent quite the same while we are technically broken up.
We kiss, we say ’ I love you’, but things arent the same.
And no, I’m not talking about the no-sex part.

I’m talking about the..spark? You seem so sad, all the time, and I do too. I feel so empty knowing that I can kiss you, and tell you I love you, but that’s as far as it goes.

No more telling people you’re mine, and showing you off. No more super long hours of cuddling. No more ‘tell me a secret’ questions that last until one of us drifts off to sleep.

I started crying today, because it hit me. Not just the break up, but exactly how bad I had hurt you. I realized it and then felt as if a truck had literally run me over. I felt so empty and destroyed and full off pain.

I threw up, and afterwards all I could manage was an “I understand. I’m sorry for all the pain.”

You hate to see me cry. You asked if being your girlfriend again would make you stop. Everything in me wanted to say yes, but I said no. That isnt what you want.

You told me you wanted these things:
-To completely trust me.
-To know, for a 100% fact, that I love you.
-To know that I would never hurt you, physically or mentally.
-To never see me in pain.
-To never see me cry.
-To never feel hurt.

You said the only way to feel some of those things was to disappear.

Ashtyn James, I swear to you that I can give you all of those things eventually if you just open up your heart and try to let me in. I’ll try my hardest, even if it kills me.

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(Source: life-inthefastlane, via beingbelle)